Why Am I Here?

Sitting in my room.. I think "Why am I here?"
Living my life constantly in fear?!
Is this life? Will it just pass?
Why do I live my life always flashing back to the past?
Is it normal for me to be here this way?
I'm slowly starting to wither-away!?
Will I one day be free? Of all the things that torment me?!
The girl I see the fat one in the mirror.. Why am  I the only one who can see her?
Letting the tears roll.. As they water my broken soul..
How much time will it take for me to be whole?!
Living my life trapped in a cage... My body is full of rage..
Shattered  and scattered I'm hurt beyond repair...
The Mirror is broken .. It has a glare..
Seein myself as the broken image I am..
No one cares .. No one really gives a damn.
The girl in the mirror I can't see clear..
But everyone knows it in her face that death  is near..
You think you know me .. You've guessed wrong
My heart & soul have been draggin on  for too long..
You say you "L*ve" me and I believe its true..
But then I need you and you say " Hell with you"
You push me around and knock me down..
My name will one day be on a polished rock..
A broken soul that the world forgot....
Shattered tears...
Scattered fears...
I didn't want to see you cry..
But now I must say goodbye